The Parts/Voices are vast and consistent. Each Part/Voice is attached to a narrative that feels as true in its story. The Disconnect (w/ tears on paper) There are some days when I feel disconnected from my self. Like my brain and its Forest of Change is hovering over me, denying me my self, my ability… Continue reading 46 Self-Portrait in the Pause – Part III – Story & Suerza
Category: On Writing
46 Self Portrait in the Pause- Part II – My Animus
Several distinctions occurred to me these past days as I've reflected on (and recovered from) the panic attack. Sifting through the noise in search of a concise way to describe what these distinctions are show up in other images I created in my conversation with my husband about what's happening inside my body. Underneath the… Continue reading 46 Self Portrait in the Pause- Part II – My Animus
46: Self-Portrait in the Pause – Part I
SELF-PORTRAIT, MAY 28, 2024 I had a panic attack the afternoon of my 46th birthday. It was around 3pm. I was driving to pick up my son, after I had a lovely lunch with a loved one. The panic attack started during the lunch, but I wasn't sure what was happening so I did my… Continue reading 46: Self-Portrait in the Pause – Part I
Because
These days are for throat work. For deglutition - aka swallowing. For collaboration with pharynx and esophagus. For the miracle of the complexities of breathing. For honest communication swathed in the lapis-blue of my throat chakra energy. Quietly. I've been swallowing it down. The words. The voices. I've been stomach-ing the fears. No wonder I'm… Continue reading Because
VANESSA SHIELDS 