And just like that, It swoops in. This...Otherness....This Disconnector. I was having a great day. Spent much of the morning in head-back hysterics, writing with ease, crossing things off the To-Do list like a master. Then...around 1pm...Its entry - chest-hit...oozes into me like the Mind Flayer (Shadow Monster) in Stranger Things (I'm rewatching the show...in… Continue reading The Swoop, The Flayer, The Light
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46 Self-Portrait in the Pause – Part III – Story & Suerza
The Parts/Voices are vast and consistent. Each Part/Voice is attached to a narrative that feels as true in its story. The Disconnect (w/ tears on paper) There are some days when I feel disconnected from my self. Like my brain and its Forest of Change is hovering over me, denying me my self, my ability… Continue reading 46 Self-Portrait in the Pause – Part III – Story & Suerza
46: Self-Portrait in the Pause – Part I
SELF-PORTRAIT, MAY 28, 2024 I had a panic attack the afternoon of my 46th birthday. It was around 3pm. I was driving to pick up my son, after I had a lovely lunch with a loved one. The panic attack started during the lunch, but I wasn't sure what was happening so I did my… Continue reading 46: Self-Portrait in the Pause – Part I
VANESSA SHIELDS 