Fugue Submission
: the recollection of a submission discovered like plastic treasure
upon receiving its rejection
why did i write that poem?
why did i believe it was good?
why did i pay the fee and send it into the ether of highly flammable hope and vapid validation?
twas a fugue move
a brief flash in the pan – mind-numbed by theme or desperation or self-sabotage
or all three
utterly disturbed and
bloody barefoot on the high wire yet driven to
experimental expressions: write revise send
blah blah blah
there it goes…..
twas a fugue performance
reprimanded by a tweet announcing the winners
– their names acupuncture needles lifting the memory of the words
from deeply tensed muscles pushed together to form another layer of loss
I forget to feel until I feel it again and again
these repetitious fizzles
negate each tiny recovery
it’s better to forget
to keep beginning again
to let layers leaven like sweet bread
VANESSA SHIELDS, writer 
Well Vanessa,
You’ve “hit it “ with this one! We’ve all “been there” and will be again! Such is life with poetry, or anything worthwhile!
Thanks for writing this- I think it should be discussed in poetry classes, especially for beginners- the message, “Keep writing”- Don’t give up!
Amen!
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